tag!!!

tag jeder!!!!
es tut mir leid.
i am sorry i have not been posting lately.
i haven't been on the computer in a while.
plus i can't post any pictures or videos.

anyway, i'm at the library right now.
i made a silk screen t-shirt.
it says i love ced-chan.

its so cool!


SO THERE IS SOMETHING I NEED TO TELL MY ONLINE READERS (IF I HAVE ANY)
DRUMROLL PLEASE...
I AM NO LONGER OBSESSED WITH BILL KAULITZ!!!
AAAAHHHH!!! WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?!?!?!
BUT THAT'S THE WHOLE REASON YOU STARTED THIS BLOG RIGHT??? TO TALK AND OBSESS OVER BILL RIGHT??? YEAH I GUESS, BUT THE LOVE I HAD HAS FADED!!! AND WELL, I DISCOVERED HOW SATISFYING MANGA IS (NOT THAT I HAVE A SEXUAL FETISH OF IT OR ANYTHING...)

SO ANYWAYS... I AM OVER BILL. SADLY. AND THERE WILL BE NO MORE PICTURE OF THE DAY BECAUSE I HAVE NO FLASH DRIVE TO SAVE PICTURES AND WELL, I'M NOT A FREQUENT POSTER ANYMORE. SO YOU PEOPLE WILL HAVE TO BE PATIENT WITH ME UNTIL I MAKE UP MY MIND AND FIND SOMETHING WORTHY OF POSTING. BUT FOR NOW, LETS SAY FAREWELL AND GOODBYE(FOR NOW) TO OUR BELOVED BILL KAULITZ. HE WILL FOREVER BE IN OUR HEARTS, NO MATTER HOW CREEPY SEXY GIRLY HE IS.









































































*PANT, PANT, PANT* WHO KNEW I WOULD POST THIS MANY PICTURES... *PANT, PANT* THAT WAS TIRING.

AUF WIEDERSEHEN BILL!!!
ICH LIEBE DICH 4EVA!!!!! <3

NOW LET'S ALL JUST SING MONSOON, THE SONG THAT STARTED IT ALL, JUST ONE MORE TIME...

MONSOON
by Bill / Tom Kaulitz

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold
It's making me insane

I've been waitin here so long
But now the moment seems to've come,
I see the dark clouds coming up again.

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I'll think of you,
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you

A half moon's fading from my sight
I see your vision in it's light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name, I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey! Hey!

I'm fighting all it's power
Coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

ultimo tag of skool!!!!

YAY!!!
ITS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!
SUMMER'S HERE!!!!!!!
TODAY IS GONNA BE SO AWESOME!!!

yesterday i went to my friend's house and for three hours ate a bunch of junk food and watched two psychos play HALO.
i have video evidence but sadly cannot post it at the moment.
but i will soon!!! ;)

Otro dia que no me quiero levantar

OMG OMG OMG!!!
I JUST FOUND THIS AWESOME BLOG!!!!
http://harajukus.blogspot.com/
its all about japanese fashion.
i really admire japanese fashion.
they dress up all weird and formal and no one classifies them as minorities.
i wish i could dress like they do...

ok so like a miracle happened this morning...
i opened the fridge, hoping there would be strawberries, and..
THERE WERE STRAWBERRIES!!!!

and then last night i had a dream...
it was me and C*** just hanging out at school.
and i kept pushing him away.
it made me realize how stupid i am.
because that's how i've been acting around him lately.
i get jealous or doubtful or suspective of him and then i push him away.
now that i think about it, i don't know why i push him away. maybe so he can realize he's done something wrong and he can come running after me, cos i like it when he comes after me, when he has my attention.
that's all i really want, his attention. i want him to be interested in me. but at the same time, i want ALL his attention. and that's unhealthy isn't it?
i need to figure myself out. i don't know what i want. i'm not okay.

so lately i've been looking at clothes, clothes, and clothes.
i love clothes. i wish i were good at making them.
this summer i want to make dresses. a lot of dresses.
gothic lolita dresses.
i think i should major in japanese urban street style and grow up to be an american dress maker who's dresses are inspired by japanese dresses.
that would be nice. but i also want to be a musician.
playing in a big band, it makes you feel like your part of something. like you belong, like you have a meaning in life. and the music, don't get me started on the music, all those sounds envelope you and make you feel sumblime and it is just a wonderful experience being a musician.

so i feel as if i'm avoiding C***. i don't want him to think that i am but then again i'm afraid i am i mean, i take a different bus home, i don't see him at lunch, i just don't see him so often anymore. its hard being near him and knowing i'm a nuisance.

so anyways...
heres a picture of some LOLIS:



OH!!! AREN'T THEY SO PRECIOUS?!?! <3
I JUST LOVE LOLIS. THEY ARE SO FASHIONABLE.
IF ONLY I WERE ONE...

AND NOW ITS TIME FOR...
TODAY'S PICTURE OF THE DAY!!!
YAY!!! n_n
DAS HEUTE TAG IST...



TEE-HEE!!! BILL LOOKS SO CUTE!!! <3
i wonder if i've posted this already...hmm...
OH WELL!!! IT DOESN'T MATTER...

so omg only like three and a half days of school left.
YAY!!!
can't wait till summer..
gonna make some money and clothes and just gonna be busy sculpting my futuro.
also i've been signed up for english A.P. so i'll be reading...
HOPEFULLY THEY ARE GOOD BOOKS.

well i'm tired of venting.
see you tomorrow!!!
AUF WIEDERSEHEN!!!

WeNsDeE

so its settled, me and c*** are "separated".
he said he feels "caged in". i don't like that.
he also said we should see other people. i don't want to see other people. i hope i really do change over the summer so that then me and c*** can start over and maybe i won't be so awful. my teacher was right when she said that girlfriends are worse than boyfriends. i hope that IF i do date anyone else that its a girl.
so my main goal over the summer is to change. maybe i should start taking ZOLOFT and then maybe i'll stop thinking that c*** messes around with other girls.

its time for...
TODAY'S PICTURE OF THE DAY!!! YAY!!!^o^
DAS HEUTE TAG IST...



yay!!! bill looks so pretty!!!<3
i really do wish i had a flash drive...
(SIGHS...)

so its almost time to go.
AUF WIEDERSEHEN!!!

martei (did i spell that right???)

Dramatic
by YUKI

Nakushita yakusoku wa hoshi ni
Omoide wa tokenai
Yotsuba no kuroobaa sagashinagara
Kimi no kao chirari to mitewa me o sorasu
Arekara dorekurai yoru o koetano?
Nigate na tokoro kara nigeteruno?
Fuku o kigaete mado no soto o mitemiyoo
Shinkokyuushite mieru keshiki wa
Chigau hazu dawa

*Kowareta taisetsuna mono to
Itsuka mata aeru hi ga kuru kashira
Nokoshita kizuato ga kienai
Sorezore no basho made
Moo ikanakuccha

Popura namiki dasenai mama no love letter
Nandomo te o furikaeshita wakaregiwa
Osanai koro omoiegaiteta subete wa
Kanaerareta ka no yooni mieta noni
Yasashii ame wa furu watashitachi no ue ni
Surechigau hito no kazu dake
Doramachikku ni naruno
Nakushita yakusoku wa hoshi ni
Omoide wa tokenai de soba ni aru
Ima kokoro wa kiyoku hikaru
Namida de mienakunaru
Sasayakana nagareboshi o hitotsubu
Tenohira ni ageru kara